Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I'm going to be honest with you today. I have seriously been questioning my parenting capabilities as of late. And my general qualifications as a wife as well. I yell at my boys (and girls) daily. The microwave saves dinner often. Heath has to scavenge for clean socks (sometimes undies) on more than one occasion. The children seem to be full of disobedience, idleness, lies. And then the questions of defeat come knocking at my door.

~Am I doing enough to raise my children right?

~Can I work more to give them a proper upbringing?

~What more can I do to be better?

~What am I missing?

~Why won't these cycles ever change?

I have spent many nights over the last month broken hearted and defeated before God. And these are five things I've have learned.

*1- It's not about me. For I am just a broken being God has redeemed.

*2-I cannot work, do, discipline or love enough. For my strength is in Him only.

*3-These children are not mine. For I have only been granted stewardship from The Most High.

*4-I am not alone. For this is not a wilderness in which I have been left alone.

*5- There aren't any get right quick schemes that work. For this is a race of endurance led by my Savior Himself.

It would be nice if we could say certain words in certain ways, a certain amount of times and have the "perfect" child. But we are not puppeteers or magicians. We are child of God, raising His blessings. It takes time, faith, trust, hope, and hard work. And we as Moms (with a few Dads) are getting together to strengthen, support, and encourage one another for 21 Days in Prayer for our Sons. Brooke McGlothlin has written a wonderful prayer guide that has launched this world wide event (there is a leader living in Thailand!) that begins June 8th. And I'm going to give away one of her books this week to get one Mom started. Leave me a comment telling me how many boys you have and their ages, and one way I can pray for you over this next month. And June 7th at 9pm CST I'll choose a winner! And don't forget to go over to 21 Days of Prayer for Sons and join a group.